I am so...unbelievably...exhausted. I am overwhelmed, I'm stressed out, and there are about a thousand different times every day when I think seriously about quitting everything.
I'm a fifth-year senior in college. When I graduate (in May), I will have given 19 years of my life to education. I started school when I four years old and I've been doing school consistently ever since. And as rewarding as it will be to walk across that stage, there are times when I can't picture it. I can't picture that destination because there are so many things in my way and I am so "busy" just trying to keep up with everything.
I'm taking 21 hours this semester. Everyone tried to talk me out of it. Everyone said I should just stretch it out, but five years worth of college told me that I am so ready to be done.
I look at my days during the week, and everything is jam packed with meetings, classes, lessons, practice time, homework, and don't even mention actual work.
Every day for the last few months, I have seriously considered quitting school...
But then I think about all the work it has taken to get me here. All the blood, sweat, tears, and money. All the time and effort. And I think to myself what a sin it would be to throw all of that away just for a few moments peace.
I don't think much about being a good steward of the things God has given me. I don't know why, but it's something I need to get better at. The ability and right to receive an education is a blessing from God. It is something that He has given me, and I must be a good steward of it. I never really have been before because, let's face it, I'm not a good student.
But God has gotten me to this point, and I owe it to him to see it through. I owe it to my mom who has paid for college from day one. I owe to myself because I've paid for it with experience (and loans).
Do I actually think I'll go to hell if I don't finish? No. But this quote does give me something to think about. What does it say about us when we don't finish something important?
Keep on truckin,' guys...