Happy Monday, everyone!
Today's topic in The Challenge is to share something you're struggling with right now. To be honest, I didn't really want to write this post because I didn't want to confess what I'm struggling with. But I am someone who knows that confession is good for soul, even when you're not necessarily confessing something that you did wrong. So I'm going to confess, support group style...
My name is LesLeigh and I'm struggling with feeling like I'm not moving forward in life.
I'm only 22 but I'm getting to that stage in life where people I graduated high school with are getting married and having children, or are already married or have children. I should have graduated college about a week ago but with transferring schools and everything, I'm behind.
The point is, I feel like I'm no further ahead in life. Yes, by this time next year, I will have my degree (God-willing). But other than that and a ton of life experience, I'm no further ahead than when I first started college at 18 years old. At least, I don't feel that way. I'm still partially dependent on my parents. I still don't have a car. I've never lived outside of a dorm or my mother's house.
And it all makes me ask myself "What am I doing with my life?"
I'm sure if my 18 year old self met me now, she'd be shocked at how different I am and how much I've gone through. I know that I've grown as a person. I know that I've learned so much and that I wouldn't trade my college experience for anything. And next year, I'll be proud that I stuck with something for four years and ended up with a degree, a degree I can actually use.
But there are lots of moments when I wonder if I have made any progress or if I'm just floating. I don't think it's a struggle that can be fixed until I actually do move forward with something, like getting a car or an apartment (hopefully both).
I guess we'll see what happens after the summer is over. Life is on pause until then because I will be spending my summer in North Carolina doing an internship.
Is anyone else struggling with this or am I the only one?